It is almost 10pm (CST). In two hours we being a new year. This will be the 28th new year I have seen. (I don’t remember the early ones, just so we’re clear.)
In the last few years, I find myself feeling like today is a normal day. And then I wake up feeling like tomorrow is a normal day. And I cannot help but think, over and over on New Year’s Eve, that we feel like “this will be the year!” I’ve felt it before. I hear it all around me. This year I will _________________. I won’t let it get away from me. I won’t forget. I won’t slip. Whatever the ______________________ is, we focus on our strength/dedication/desire to make these goals happen, to achieve these dreams.
For several years it’s been heavy on my heart to deal with one day. I cannot make next year a good year. But I can make one day, a good day. I can read my bible, today. I can eat right, today. I can focus on parenting with purpose, today. I can empty the sink of dishes, today. I can workout, today. I can write, today. I can ride, today.
Tomorrow, well I don’t know what tomorrow holds. I don’t know what 365 tomorrows hold. I don’t have the strength for 365 tomorrows. I haven’t been given the grace for 365 tomorrows. But I have enough strength, and I’ve been given enough grace for today. I’ll let tomorrow worry about itself.
In this incredibly busy time in my life, I am reminded just how important it is to live in the here and now – to focus on today, and today only. It’s not always easy to not worry, but if I let too many days stack up on me, I drown in the fear. It paralyzes me.
And grace – I think we get the grace we need to pass out today. We get the grace for what we mess up today. But when I start taking too many days at a time, I don’t have enough grace for the mistakes the kids make, the words the husband says, the things that happen at work, etc. Because yesterday something hurt, and the day before something irritated me, and tomorrow something is going to make me sad, and today something was spilled. And all of that at one time is just too much. But if I just deal with today’s spill, and yesterday I dealt with that hurt, then tomorrow, I am fresh, and can receive from God what I need for that day.
And His grace for me is new every morning (Thank God, cause you and I both know I need it.)
So while you close one year and open a new one, remember, God didn’t ask you to take this year on head first. He just asked you to wake up and handle today. He is the one who holds yesterday, today, and tomorrow in hand, but that is not a task He shared with us. Today, that is what we were given, let’s make the most of each of our todays as we wake up to them. And let’s close them with grace and in peace each night as we lay our heads down.